Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Letter to myself: Wake up; open your eyes

Life has been good. Somehow, something cracked my vision and allowed light to come in. I am now awake, and understand the reasons behind my unhappiness the past few months.

I realised that I was struggling to adjust back to life in Singapore. I was afraid that life wouldn't be as exciting as I want it to be. So I indulge myself in everything that I thought would make my life exciting: parties, booze, late nights, people who were bad for me.

In the process of wanting so much; I've actually lost many things that meant something to me. I drifted away from my family, I made my friends worry about the life I was leading, and I hurt someone very important to me.

Somewhere along the way, I realised I have lost everything, and when I look at what I was left with, they were all things that mean nothing to me.

And so I decided to wake up. To become closer to my family, to be the good person my friends knew me as before, and to slowly make up to that important person in my life. Or perhaps I would just disappear in that person's life so that his/her life could be good forever.

I feel myself back on track again. I'm glad that stupid rebellious period of time is gone. I don't regret having done anything, but I know I've wasted lots of precious time on the wrong people who are totally not worth it. Will open my eyes bigger this time.

Till then,
Me

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